
The evening was January 23rd 2005- I was 35 weeks into a very difficult pregnancy – preeclampsia, pre-term labor, bed rest, hypertension., a kidney infection, and 6 weeks of living in a small hospital room had done a number on my trust in God.
IsolationIsolation was the tool God used to bring me to a very low point spiritually – but a necessary place. I regretted being pregnant, I regretted wanting a child, I feared many things and relinquished little trust in my gracious Father who was stooping over me with protective arms.
FearThen, that Monday evening I knew I could no longer hold onto it all, our son, still small and helpless in my womb had stopped moving – my fears had culminated and I was broken. Broken before the Lord in anger, I humbly surrendered this little boy to the arms of his Creator. An intellect of peace enveloped me. I called the doctor’s office and waited for their return phone call, “Why wasn’t he moving I asked myself,” “When was the last time I felt him move… was it around 1:00 this afternoon?” “Why hadn’t I noticed it before?” After an hour of poking and drinking cold water the nurse had an idea, she had me eat a whole bowl of hot soup. So, in desperation I did … and waited…. and prayed... and then I felt it ever so faint… a kick…. a flutter… and then … nothing… Drew was still alive! The following morning we learned that Pre-eclampsia had advanced to a point where the baby was in distress, I was induced the following morning and Drew was born into the arms of his anxious parents.
He was a healthy 6 pound little boy with developed lungs and few effects r

emained from his difficult start to life. At that moment, when I held my little boy, studied the fingers and toes that the Lord had fashioned together in my womb – I saw and felt the goodness of God illuminating warmth into my lonely and cold soul. I felt new life well up inside of me, and I gave thanks for my time in the wilderness; for when the spring arrived, new life was able to sprout with a hunger I never knew existed for my Creator - Jehovah-Elohim.
GoodnessWhat comes to your mind when you think of the word “goodness”? The English dictionary defines goodness as “excellence, worth, kindness, disposed to the well being of others.” When we speak about the Lord’s goodness it often refers to God causing “blessings to come upon his people, deliverance, and the storing of future gifts. Chip Ingram writes that goodness “implies a sense of deli

ght in the one giving and the gift given. God’s goodness is pleasant, desirable, fair, and generous.” In this giving season I just wanted to challenge us to look for the goodness of God, seek out times of solitude with the Lord and ask him to reveal his goodness’ – past and present. Look back into your past and jot down times where the Lord’s goodness was evident. The Lord can reveal his goodness through natural blessings, deliverance, and through the virgin birth of his one and only son Jesus. As we reflect and worship our savior’s birth don’t be content to keep it to yourself – respond to Jehovah’s goodness with a quite evening dedicated to the Lord. Grab a cup of cocoa, sit by the fire with the precious and enduring Word of God, repent from sins, meditate on God’s goodness’, and then brainstorm ways to share the goodness of God with the world.
“The Lord, the Lord God, compassionate and gracious (stooping to protect), slow to anger, and abounding in loving kindness and truth, who keeps loving kindness for thousands, who forgives iniquity, transgressions, and sin…”
Exodus 34:6-7a
Activity for the WeekAs you picture our gracious Lord “stooping over to protect you” this Christmas season what sacrifice are you willing to give in response to God’s goodness– repentance from a besetting sin, the giving of finances & time, overcoming insecurity by sharing your testimony with your unsaved neighbor? The options are endless!
Psalms 31:19
How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you, which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you.
From the Desk of: Melissa Williams